Got up, made a toast & egg sandwich and had that with hot chocolate. Took a Project 365 photo of said sandwich. It reminded me of how much mom loved a good fried egg sandwich for breakfast. Then while I was watching church and singing along, I just suddenly started tearing up. I was reminded of how much my mom loved to sing and praise her Lord & Savior. She had such a joy when she sang. No matter how she felt or how sick she was, she always perked up when she sang. It's one of my favorite memories of her. She had unbridled joy when she sang. I'm sure she's in heaven now, singing with the angels in the biggest and most unimaginably majestic choir. The thought made me full of joy for her, but full of sorrow for me missing her. I ended up sobbing on the floor, where Todd found me and held me for a long time. It's been a while since I've had such a strong memory and emotional reaction to missing my mom.
I was reading Lauren's (mlpieters) blog and found some Bible reading RSS feeds there. I subscribed. What a great way to keep up with Bible reading, which is one of my spiritual goals this year. I spend a lot of my time online everyday, so why not have an RSS feed of daily Bible reading? A plan the someone feeds me and all I have to do is go into my Google Reader and read it. Just like someone's blog. It's not tedious. It's not heavy to carry around. My study Bible is so big and heavy, that when I fall asleep reading it in bed and it falls to the floor with a big loud thump, I get startled!
So here's some links, maybe you can do it too if you want.
http://entirebibleinayear.wordpress.com/
http://www.esv.org/biblereadingplans
http://www.biblegateway.com/blog/?p=106
Todd and I had Indian food buffet for lunch at Delhi Kitchen. It was packed! So yummy.
Then Trader Joe's. Then Target, where we got a bunch of Christmas ornaments and garlands for 90% off. It was practically free! I got 8 packs of light blue and silver ornaments for a color-themed tree for next year.
I bought some desk organizing stuff so I can start anew and try to keep my desk clean. I'm so bad with my desk. It's messy all the time.
Then we went to Starbucks for a Vanilla Rooibos tea latte, it's new! Came home and tried to organize all my stuff, esp the stuff on my desk. I found a bill that came in November that was due on Jan 1st. Oops! :(
(((HUGS)))
ReplyDeletei know it's hard, but when that happens to me, i just embrace the sadness and joy and try to roll with it. i find that if i give in when my soul is telling me it's time to, then i actually do feel better afterwords...somehow i feel more at peace with the loved one i miss. i hope that even after all your crying and sadness you were able to feel some joy after remembering your mom so fondly. (((HUGS)))
I still have my parents so I can't say I know what you're feeling, Christine. But I did tear up for you. You were blessed to have a mother who loved Jesus like that!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the links to the devotionals.
Hugs!
Christine
{{{HUGS}}} Christine!!!
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